Hello there.

Whew. Time flied incredibly fast. I can't think of anyone who I have to apologize over a long loooong absence from this space. Who still follows this blog?? Anyway I'm so sorry to those who have been awaited for my appearance.

 What did I talk to you about in the last post? Did I tell you I was pregnant? Did I tell you I gave a birth to my baby girl? Did I tell you I've been struggling to take care of her? Yep, I'm still struggling to take care of her. She turned 1 the end of last month. That means I've been a mother for a year now, but I'm still making lots of effort to soothe my HM girl. Whenever something she doesn't like happens, she cries. When something she's playing with doesn't move in the way she wants it to, when I get her down on the floor from holding position, when she is left because of my bathroom use, when she is tired of sitting on her baby chair for lunch, ,,,, well, I can list up more of these, but it's entirely useless. As you can easily imagine, I've always been tired, and this space had been neglected that way. Actually another blog, which I'm blogging in Japanese, also has very sparse entries. I didn't expect all these, but for now it seems this turtle-walking-pace blogging is all I can do.

 By the way, I call my baby daughter "piano-chan" in another blog, so I'll do the same way here. The life after her born have been quite interesting one. Although most of the time I'm exhausted, I'm still enjoying this new life in various aspect. The toughest and yet most delightful thing I've experienced is interaction with new people. Before her birth I'd rather preferred to be alone most of the time, so I spent my time that way. But after the birth I started meeting some people because I needed their help or I thought I'd better doing it because of piano-chan. I found some moms who have similar-aged babies and toddlers as me, and I have kept meeting them regularly. I also keep in touch with the doula who helped my labor to talk about all mothering things. She has been like my mentor since then. Meeting them is simply nice and I appreciate them to have me in their life. Although some part of me feel like that way, still other part of me want to be alone like before. I have tried to adjust me into the new life, but sometimes it feels really excruciating. Maybe I need some more time to fit in there. The life after the birth have been hectic, and I barely manage to find time to blog here and there. But I hope I gradually find the way to balance all my want-to-do things withhave-to-do things. So I'll talk to you before long, hopefully. :)